I’m the last of three children. I didn’t grow up in a conventional setting where the sibling before you is maybe 2 or 3 years older. Our 2nd born is 16 years older than I am and the first born is 18 years older, so quite frankly when I was born they were all grown up. I had no one to relate to.
I was told by my mum that she had always been expecting a 3rd child even when everybody didn’t believe so. My father never really had a connection with me, I think maybe because out of 3, I was this last unexpected child that happened, so I had issues with him. He loved the others even though I was told I’m the one that’s most like him.
At about 7 years old, I started living an independent life. I wasn’t getting attention, even though my mum was there for me. I started doing so many things at a young age; drinking, smoking, and all sorts of inappropriate things.
I always felt like one “bad guy”. If God was going to use anybody, it wasn’t going to be someone like me but I met with God in an unconventional way. It made me realise that regardless of how many years you may think you have wasted, when God is ready for you, he is ready for you. There is nothing too hard for him to do.
I mean right now, God worked things out so much that if my dad doesn’t speak with me in a day, he’ll feel like something is missing. Everything is now falling in pleasant places for me just because of one thing; I now serve God. There’s nothing else that is as rewarding as working for God. I mean you might not be where you think you want to be but it’s all a plan. See, this whole life is a script. You are just an actor and someone is directing everything. Every move you make is a script written by God and he’s not the kind of God that would forget your labour of love, if you work diligently in his presence.
I’m 22 years old, but I’ve seen so many things in life to make me trust in God because there’s nothing I can do without him.